Lunacii
10-04-2010, 02:06 AM
I'm here to hopefully gain some insight into my situation and get some outside opinions. I'm searching for answers and this just feels like a step in the right direction. =) Now I'll explain further my situation.
About 13 years ago I began practicing Wicca. I was 13. I took it very seriously. It wasn't a game to me, nor was it all about "Ooo what kind of cool stuff can I do??" I felt drawn to it then.
Often times I would have this recurring dream. I would be visiting a wicca shop and there would be a middle aged woman running the store. And she would always welcome me and say hello. Always friendly. The dream would always start out as some bizarre just random dreaming, and somewhere in the middle of the dream I would get this urge to go find this store. It always had the same door. The door itself looked like it was carved from a huge tree. (I don't know if this is important or not but hey, detail can't hurt lol) and the store would always be in different places but it always stayed the same. But anyways, the last time I dreamed of this shop, it felt different. And the woman came up to me as I was shopping like I normally did, and said to me "This is not the right path for you..." and before I could talk to her I woke up. Now I should mention these dreams always felt real. They did not feel like dreams. I could smell, touch, taste.. everything in the store. I felt like I was there. I've learned these types of dreams shouldn't be ignored.
After that dream I gave up Wicca and went off on many other paths. I believe i've finally found the right one now but over the years I often have this urge to go back to Wicca. I attempted to once about 5 years ago but when I started it just didn't feel right. Now I'm finding myself drawn to it yet again. There is something missing in my life. Why I often have these urges to go back to Wicca is beyond me. I don't quite understand it and I don't know what to do with it.
I also find myself very drawn to the moon. It could be my zodiac and the fact that the moon rules cancer.
These are all the details I can think to add right now. If anyone has any comments, thoughts, opinions or questions.. by all means i'm here just to explore all this again. =)
I should also mention my great grandmother apparently did what the family called "white magick".. I don't know what kind of impact that might have on all this. Just adding more details!
Edit* My grandmother did white magick but she also worked with herbs a lot. I myself am drawn to plants and nature, but herbs specifically.
About 13 years ago I began practicing Wicca. I was 13. I took it very seriously. It wasn't a game to me, nor was it all about "Ooo what kind of cool stuff can I do??" I felt drawn to it then.
Often times I would have this recurring dream. I would be visiting a wicca shop and there would be a middle aged woman running the store. And she would always welcome me and say hello. Always friendly. The dream would always start out as some bizarre just random dreaming, and somewhere in the middle of the dream I would get this urge to go find this store. It always had the same door. The door itself looked like it was carved from a huge tree. (I don't know if this is important or not but hey, detail can't hurt lol) and the store would always be in different places but it always stayed the same. But anyways, the last time I dreamed of this shop, it felt different. And the woman came up to me as I was shopping like I normally did, and said to me "This is not the right path for you..." and before I could talk to her I woke up. Now I should mention these dreams always felt real. They did not feel like dreams. I could smell, touch, taste.. everything in the store. I felt like I was there. I've learned these types of dreams shouldn't be ignored.
After that dream I gave up Wicca and went off on many other paths. I believe i've finally found the right one now but over the years I often have this urge to go back to Wicca. I attempted to once about 5 years ago but when I started it just didn't feel right. Now I'm finding myself drawn to it yet again. There is something missing in my life. Why I often have these urges to go back to Wicca is beyond me. I don't quite understand it and I don't know what to do with it.
I also find myself very drawn to the moon. It could be my zodiac and the fact that the moon rules cancer.
These are all the details I can think to add right now. If anyone has any comments, thoughts, opinions or questions.. by all means i'm here just to explore all this again. =)
I should also mention my great grandmother apparently did what the family called "white magick".. I don't know what kind of impact that might have on all this. Just adding more details!
Edit* My grandmother did white magick but she also worked with herbs a lot. I myself am drawn to plants and nature, but herbs specifically.