Thoughts?

[PAN33]

So this is kind of a personal story and I was hoping to gain some perspective from other people on it. I think about it often and it strengthened my faith in Goddesses more than anything else. So here's the story...

A couple of years ago I was really struggling through my second year of university. I had a lot of stress and problems in my life, I was very unhappy, and in fact I know now that I was clinically depressed. It was around my midterm exams and I had an essay due the following day that I hadn't started yet, I was freaking out and everything kind of came down upon me at once. I was feeling suicidal and I knew that if I had had anything in my room to off myself with I would have done it. I couldn't move - I was just stuck in this all-encompassing despair spiral when suddenly I had a vision of myself drowning in this great maelstrom -- a vision of what I was mentally going through at that very moment (everything spiralling around me with me stuck there in the middle) when suddenly this great woman picked me up and lifted me out of the middle of it all to where I could breathe again. I don't remember what she looked like in the vision - all I remember is hands gently picking me up and I know it was a woman. And at the same time as I was being lifted out of this maelstrom I heard the last lines from one of my favourite poems "I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul". I went and got help at the counselling center the very next day.

I am positive that a Goddess saved me in that moment but what I am forever puzzling over is which Goddess and if She might be my matron Goddess. I'm still learning about all the different Goddesses and I'm finding it all very difficult...
Does anyone have any ideas as to which Goddess it may have been that saved me that day? Maybe you can tell from the descriptions who it might be or help me to narrow it down. I would very much appreciate any insight anyone could give. Thanks in advance - can't wait to hear back.

Blessed Be

[Phoenix Ayrmed]

Wow. Your vision is amazing. I have a similar story to yours, although yours seems to lack a lot of the raw and powerful dark energy that mine carries.

You felt a clearly female presence, but it has no name, and that's one of the wonders of the Lady. She can be one and all. Which is how I see her in your vision. I recommend looking up various goddesses and pantheons and seeing if the Lady in your vision matches any goddess that resonates with you. Or just say the name of a goddess that comes to mind, like a mantra, and see if you have familiar feelings.

Remember, the names of the gods are titles we give them in order to relate to them in our humanity. She has been called the Lady of the Ten Thousand Names, so do not be discouraged by the first name you feel familiar with.

Good luck!

Artemis

[PAN33]

Your reply was so encouraging. I think I did get a bit caught up in discovering the name of the Goddess and lost sight of the powerfulness of such a vision. I take comfort in the idea that the names of the gods are simply titles that we give to them as you put it and from now on any time I feel myself getting sidetracked by names I'll simply recall that She is the Lady of Ten Thousand Names and try to focus on what's important. Not for nothing though I've been reading a book call the Goddess Pages which describes 36 goddesses from around the globe and different ways to connect with them - two goddesses struck me as very familiar - Green Tara and Quan Yin - I'll have to do more research into their backgrounds. I don't know if you're still researching goddesses yourself but the book is quite a good read - definitely worth a look.

On another note, I'd love to hear about your own similar vision sometime :)

Blessed Be